May 1, 2008

  • 30 . .

    Isn't quite as bad as one would think.  :)


    I completed my third decade on this earth a week ago today.  I had some goals to hit before I hit 30 (or at least be close to completing), and I haven't done so.  Mostly . . I had a goal to lose weight.  I wanted to be svelte by 30 . . and I started a pretty strict regimen of calorie counting and exercise on my 29th birthday.  As of today, I'm only about 15 lbs less than I was last year.  Nothing to sneeze at . . but in the scheme of things?  Only a drop in the bucket.  It's a struggle for me.  I can eat the same amount as a skinny person, and still gain weight.  Probably because I'd rather sit on my behind than move about.  My 'jobs' don't help me either . . . I sit.  At the computer.  all. day.  long.  Then I get in my car and drive to rehearsal / show / etc . . where I sit on my behind.  All.  Night.  Long.  So I have to work twice as hard as someone who is (and has the ability to be) more active than I. 


    So why haven't I been?  Thats my biggest question to myself.  Why.  why why why.  Why do I do the things I do . . and not the things I should? 


    I have no idea.  I really and truthfully don't know.


    So I guess that's my next project.  I've come so far in the last 10 years, that people who knew me when I turned 20, probably wouldn't recognize me today.  Not because I look different . . but because I've changed.  I'm more outgoing . . . I chatter with people . . I know who I am, what I want, and I try my darndest to get it.  But now, I've got to change some more.  And in that process, I think I'll find the way to be able to lose the weight.  I need to re-figure me out!


    I think this decade holds a lot of promise for me.  Music; job; life . . . and now that I know who I am and what I want, and now that I'm aware of my surroundings . . . I think these next 10 years are just gonna be a blast. 


    Did I hear someone say that 30 is the new 20?


    ;)