July 13, 2008

• “July 6, in the morning
        My angel, my all, my very self – Only a few words today and at
  that with pencil (with yours) – Not till tomorrow will my lodgings be
  definitely determined upon – what a useless waste of time – Why this
  deep sorrow when necessity speaks – can our love endure except through
  sacrifices, through not demanding everything from one another; can you
  change the fact that you are not wholly mine, I not wholly thine – Oh
  God, look out into the beauties of nature and comfort your heart with
  that which must be – Love demands everything and that very justly -
  thus it is to me with you, and to your with me. But you forget so
  easily that I must live for me and for you; if we were wholly united
  you would feel the pain of it as little as I – My journey was a fearful
  one; I did not reach here until 4 o’clock yesterday morning. Lacking
  horses the post-coach chose another route, but what an awful one; at
  the stage before the last I was warned not to travel at night; I was
  made fearful of a forest, but that only made me the more eager – and I
  was wrong. The coach must needs break down on the wretched road, a
  bottomless mud road. Without such postilions as I had with me I should
  have remained stuck in the road. Esterhazy, traveling the usual road
  here, had the same fate with eight horses that I had with four – Yet I
  got some pleasure out of it, as I always do when I successfully
  overcome difficulties – Now a quick change to things internal from
  things external. We shall surely see each other soon; moreover, today I
  cannot share with you the thoughts I have had during these last few
  days touching my own life – If our hearts were always close together, I
  would have none of these. My heart is full of so many things to say to
  you – ah – there are moments when I feel that speech amounts to nothing
  at all – Cheer up – remain my true, my only treasure, my all as I am
  yours. The gods must send us the rest, what for us must and shall be –
  Your faithful LUDWIG”
  

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